Well i want to thank you all for 7 blessed years gaming on the LZ servers, and a couple of years for the LG team what shamely died on a slow dead. I really had the time of my life on the CSS servers from LZ, and i really appreciate the admin team that was here, though i had my conflicts now and then because of my rebelious and other way of thinking. And periods of leaving the LZ/LG servers for what it was to come back a few weeks later. For me at this moment i'm closing a chapter of a book with lots of disappointments and huge steps i had to take in my earlylife such as the dead of my best GF on my 18th, the miscarriage i had with my ex GF 2 years ago what collapsed sadly enough a relationship of 8years begin this year, and the passing away from my dad, this may, that lost the fight again cancer after 6 hard but also beautifull years ! I closed this chapter almost lastweek with one of the biggest Hardstyle party's ive ever been, in Austria. For me a new chapter is started to be written, i felt in love with an other girl, i never thought this would happening this fast. I received the oppertunity to to some more training for my work, and the oppertunity to get more involved in organizing of Dance Festivals in the middle east. My family and friends are giving me the fully support to begin a new way of life, and to do what i like to do. Sorry that it became a bit personal. I hope this community will live on for ever ! Had really great times, will never forget LZ ! See ya !
Everybody comes and goes and maybe in the future my time will also come. But for now i am still motivated as there are players but that mainly was/is tf2 for me. Css got a boost when it moved to sourced engine and i could be off help but the moves of ip's back in the days killed a big player base. All good things come to a end at some point, so good luck with your new way of life. Dont forget, there is always time for LZ too. But one should take into consideration that its for fun and if there are better things to do like picking up a social life with a new gf then you should take that. I am in the position where i am granted that freedom from my wife, however it comes at a cost too. Just make sure you never find out how far that cost will get you. As of right now i do believe your in the process of not finding out that cost at all. As others before you, have a good time and i hope you will find that what you want in live. You have been on a very bumpy road and i can only tell that my wife has been down that same road (mother died of cancer) Perhaps not in your case, but when i found her i patched her up and gave meaning to it all. I hope your new girlfriend will do the same thing for you. Since your story was so compelling i had to try and make a good post too, since we dont see those much here.